its christmas day, it doesnt feel like christmas to me a. alot of hype. i am so sad about the state of things in my family. its just a mess and getting worse . i love my kids. this man i married has hurt me so much recently that my spirit is depressed and i just want to die .he has not acknowledged to me any sorrow over wat he has done and the toll it is taking on m heart is rididculously sad.